Medical Diaries: Journal 4

I convinced myself to go after my dreams, now I had to convince my parents and trust me, it wasn't easy. One night I told them I couldn't do this anymore. I was suffering with clinical depression and anxiety for over a year and I didn't know why I had it. With my shrink I figured that the first anxiety attack I got was after I joined Aakash and ever since I have been in that hole. I told this to my parents who immediately dismissed it. They wanted to study in India, obviously. There was a lot of screaming and arguments but soon they understood what was the difference and how important my dreams are and what they mean to me. My parents have always been supportive once they understand how important it is to me. Finance was an issue, distance was an issue, nothing was figured except for what I wanted. So we decided to first see if it is feasible to study abroad. One thought was to sell the house but no, mom designed each bit of this house and how could we just sell it. Then came, educational loans. I ran a couple of errands to the banks, inquired and found that I could apply for an educational loan. My parents thought it would be a lot of debt but I was prepared for it. Now distance would always be an issue. I knew if I stayed here I would never learn how to be independent. They would pamper me with so much love and care that I wouldn't grow to be the person I want to be. So,  now the only issue left is admission. I need to get into a college. I will tell you all about it in my next post after I finish research. For now, bye bye.