Reflection: SIMUN
The South India Model United Nations, the name itself carrier a million memories. I don't know where to start from. Every time I think of this event and I have mixed emotions. I am happy, I am sad, I am satisfied and proud and I am low too for many reasons. I am going to honest, plain honest. I didn't want to be a part of this, I didn't want to be the Director general or even anything close to it. I wanted to complete IB happily but with peer pressure, I went on. I don't regret doing this but I do feel incomplete. The internal conflicts were nothing like what we faced before. It was reality slapping my face right in front of me and I couldn't do anything. I was happy to sign the certificates, to carry around the tag of DG, to stand on the stage and give away awards but I was also upset with the extent of the internal conflicts, stress and workload. From pushing around the delegates to checking on the food to staying up till 1 at school and arranging everything to running around bare feet and monitoring the halls, I went mad. So far 2016 has been really stressful, I could not breathe, I felt suffocated with work. IA, EE, TOK, mock exams and SIMUN. I needed an escape. These are the exact reasons why I am thankful I did this. I learnt a good lesson. I realized how the real world is and in a way this helped me pick my career.
SIMUN changed my life in many ways. I started accepting the fact that things are not always in your control so let it be the way it is and learn to adjust with them. I learnt that you can't change people, some people are like that and you cannot do a thing about it or help them in anyway. I learnt how not to lose your cool. I was a very indecisive and impulsive person before SIMUN but now I can confidently say that I am not as impulsive and indecisive as I was. At some mental level, it hit me hard and I am always going to be thankful for it. I cannot describe how we struggled to make it through the day, all of us. We had so many things incomplete and unplanned and I couldn't take that. Being unplanned wasn't my thing but it became my thing during those 3 months.
I can go on dissecting every emotion, every bit of the journey and make it sound amazing but no, this time it is going to be the raw version of my emotions and learning. In IB language, I truly acquired every attribute in the last 3 to 4 months, every single one of it.
"It was one of those moments in my life where I had so many epiphanies amidst the pandemonium and for the first time the chaos around sorted the chaos of my life."
SIMUN changed my life in many ways. I started accepting the fact that things are not always in your control so let it be the way it is and learn to adjust with them. I learnt that you can't change people, some people are like that and you cannot do a thing about it or help them in anyway. I learnt how not to lose your cool. I was a very indecisive and impulsive person before SIMUN but now I can confidently say that I am not as impulsive and indecisive as I was. At some mental level, it hit me hard and I am always going to be thankful for it. I cannot describe how we struggled to make it through the day, all of us. We had so many things incomplete and unplanned and I couldn't take that. Being unplanned wasn't my thing but it became my thing during those 3 months.
I can go on dissecting every emotion, every bit of the journey and make it sound amazing but no, this time it is going to be the raw version of my emotions and learning. In IB language, I truly acquired every attribute in the last 3 to 4 months, every single one of it.
"It was one of those moments in my life where I had so many epiphanies amidst the pandemonium and for the first time the chaos around sorted the chaos of my life."
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